That money is long gone. If it's not, I'll buy you dinner as a way of saying sorry.
And you know what? If it is, I'll buy you a dinner anyway. You sound like everything has sh*t on you at once mate, and you could do with a treat. Shoot me a PM and we'll sort something out, genuine offer.
EDIT To add that I'm not taking the p*ss, nor mocking you in anyway. I've been where you are, where everything in life just throws more and more crap at you, and it's horrible. I'm offering you one night out on me, go get some decent grub and a few beers to treat yourself, god knows you need/deserve it by now. One human being to another, nothing more than that.