Hi guys.
Bit of an update.
Well. The relationship ended about 3 months ago now, so not long after ghis thread was started.
I miss her like crazy. We had a few dates to see if we could salvage the relationship but her heart just wasn't in it. She really had no interest in working through it and as we kept contact her attitude toward me just kept diminishing. Whereas once she loved me now was like I was a stranger that she disliked for some reason.
She said things like she still cared for me and thought about me from time to time. Funny how someone becomes so distant so quickly after being in love.
She's doing fine anyway. Lots of friends and family and always out and about.
I on the other hand have zero family and all my friends have moved on, have kids and demanding careers. So I'm very much going through this alone. She knows this and doesn't care or offer any support.
I have had some very, very dark days. I can't begin to describe them.
At the moment it's an emotional roller coaster. I have 'ok' days and bad days.
I've had to go to the doctors and they've reffered me to councillor and put me on anti depressants.
I'm trying to get on with things but the huge hole in my life really hits home the lack of people in my life.
Stings a bit to be 34 and completely alone.