Exactly, forget the hype around xmas, accept it for what it is, another day...
I would also suggest with your threads of late, you need to go talk to a professional, whilst the forum may offer a lot of encouragement and support and some very kind gestures, you need to sit down with someone and talk
It's just where I've ended up in life. Both parents dead before 30, estranged family, all friends settled with kids and I'm single lol.
I don't think a professional can help with any of the above!