Sorry to hear this Dan, can imagine what you are feeling having lost an older cousin on the road when I was younger he was an bright shining light in the room and every minute spent with him was a joy. I remember at the time being utterly devastated but now all I remember are his inane grins, stupid jokes, monkeying around and that great feeling you got when he was around and none of the bad stuff - it does get easier pal. Thoughts are with you mate.